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Post by --- Robbie Alix McGuire on Jun 9, 2009 20:37:49 GMT -5
Robbie smirked at what she said and kissed her lips hard. Fast but not too rought, he could try it though his will power did need a lot of work so it wasn't going to be easy, and he wasn't making any promises. It wasn't like it was his fault she drove him so crazy that he couldn't hold himself back.
He hadnt noticed until he was totally naked, that they were still in the living room with the curtains still open. She was pretty well hidden between him and the wall but his neighbor across the road seemed to be having an eyeful of Robbie bare arse. She looked away when she noticed she'd been spotted and went back to doing her laundry. Robbie just laughed and picked Ivy up so her legs wrapped around his waist and went into the bedroom, dropping onto the bed and imediatly started to kiss her again while he was on top of her.
He pushed down her jeans and her underwear as he did, still with that smirk on his lips. He kissed down her neck again to her chest where he knew it affected her most before slowing going back up to her lips. Now he was the one doing the teasing.
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Post by IVORYmercedesSMITHSONIAN on Jun 9, 2009 20:57:52 GMT -5
I resolve to call her up a thousand times a dayAnd ask her if she'll marry me in some old fashioned wayBUT MY SILENT TEARS HAVE GRIPPED ME!!Long before I reach the phone, long before my tongue has tripped meMUST I ALWAYS BE ALONE?? Ivy hadn't even realized the curtains were open, she didn't even know he had neighbors that close. Not like it mattered. She just laughed as he scooped her up. "She's a lucky woman, you have a cute ass." She teased lightly before kissing him deeply as they made their way to the bedroom. this is the room she'd seen the most of, almost every surface of this room.
His lips focused on her chest, which he knew perfectly well would drive her wild and she ran her fingers through his hair, holding him there. Somewhere in the middle she realized eventually she'd have a baby latched on there, in quite another way. For now though, she was moaning somewhat loudly, her body burning with his touch, waiting for his lips to hit hers again. "Bastard." She teased. "How about you just fuck me already?" Ivy wasn't sure the last time she joked so much in bed with him, but for some reason it felt right.
She kissed him more tenderly, dropping the teasing tone of voice. "Make love to me." She whispered in his ear, her hands running over the inside of his thigh.
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Post by --- Robbie Alix McGuire on Jun 10, 2009 20:05:53 GMT -5
Robbie laughed "I'm pretty sure she was waiting for me to put yours on view." he teased back between kissing her. He knew they spent most of their time at his apartment in his bedroom but there really wasn't really anything much to do anywhere else. And they had made good use of the sofa, the counter in the kitchen and most of the walls once or twice. So it wasn't like he had never given her a tour of the place.
He smirked when she proved he was bothering her with his teasing, if he hadn't wanted to do what she said so much he would have carried on just to bother her. "Being bitchy isn't how you get me to do much you know." he teased sarcastically. He knew she was kidding and for such a short tempered guy, he had a pretty good sense of humor.
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It had been just as good as the last time when he fist told her he loved her, it wasn't as rough and tumble and it wasn't as wild and crazy but more meaningful and loving. He lay with her in his arms just lost in her eyes as he looked down at her.
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Post by IVORYmercedesSMITHSONIAN on Jun 10, 2009 20:12:56 GMT -5
I resolve to call her up a thousand times a dayAnd ask her if she'll marry me in some old fashioned wayBUT MY SILENT TEARS HAVE GRIPPED ME!!Long before I reach the phone, long before my tongue has tripped meMUST I ALWAYS BE ALONE?? It had been much slower, more deliberate. It had still been passion. It had been love. Just like the time when they'd made up, when he'd confessed his love, when they made a child.... It felt good that way. Not that rough and wild wasn't good. it was just a different good.
Ivy lay in his arms, panting just the same, looking up into his eye, her fingers playing in his hair. How many time would they get to do this? How long would he be hers? Fear still ate at her, but for the moment, things were perfect.
Ivy pulled his arm around her, but his palm landed on her stomach and the realization of what that sort of symbolized now freaked her out a little bit. His hand over their baby. Unintentional, but still an image. Without showing this she wrapped his arm farther until it was around her back and she had curled up into him, chest to chest. She kissed his neck softly, at a loss for words.
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Post by --- Robbie Alix McGuire on Jun 10, 2009 20:25:50 GMT -5
Robbie didn't know what to say and he didn't think he needed to say anthing anyone. It only seemed like talking would have ruined the moment. The sound of just their breathign, and the traffic outside, was more than enough at that moment. His one hand lay on her arm as he traced invisable shapes on her skin, his skin barly touching hers.
When his hand fell on her stomach his head started to spin and he got this funny sensation in his whole body, a feeling that scared the crap out of him and he was glad she moved it because he was kind of stunned still by the feeling. He automatically had to talk, to try and push the thought away "You know, I'm kinda surprised you've never asked what my tats mean." he mused trying his best to act normal. He had four tattoos. One on his arm, one on his back, one along his side and one on hi butt.
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Post by IVORYmercedesSMITHSONIAN on Jun 10, 2009 20:30:53 GMT -5
I resolve to call her up a thousand times a dayAnd ask her if she'll marry me in some old fashioned wayBUT MY SILENT TEARS HAVE GRIPPED ME!!Long before I reach the phone, long before my tongue has tripped meMUST I ALWAYS BE ALONE?? Ivy laughed lightly and pulled back so she could at least see the tattoo on his arm. "In all honesty, when I get you naked like this, I'm more worried about your lips, your hands and what's in your pants than I am about your tattoos." She teased lightly.
"So what do they mean?" Ivy had pulled completely back and saw the one on his arm and the one on his side. She crawled around and saw the one on his back and butt. She never really saw him from behind that much so it made sense.
She crawled back around, suddenly cold and cuddled back into his warm arms, waiting for an answer.
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Post by --- Robbie Alix McGuire on Jun 10, 2009 20:46:13 GMT -5
Robbie knew exactly what she meant and laughed and little shaking his head. Going with it when she moved to look at them all and pulled her back into him when she cuddled up to him. He figured he's start with the easiest and least emotional one. "Well. The one on my arse, I was drunk, on vacation in Spain on a footy trip. The whole team got them." he laughed. Was there really any other reason a guy would have the words BITE ME imprinted on his tush other than a drunken mistake.
"This one was kind of a spure of the moment thing, cause someone dared me to." he said and pointed at the one on his arm. "And... the one on my arm... was some chicks name... Another drunk incident, I got it covered like a week later..." he mumbled that one and quickly moved on.
The one on his back was some fancy writing in french "The one on my back, I got it just after my dad died." he said briefly. He didn't tell her what the words meant. He didn't really like talk about the one on his back, it was on his back so he didn't have to see it and look at it to remind himself all that often. It was just what his father had always told him as a kid.
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Post by IVORYmercedesSMITHSONIAN on Jun 10, 2009 20:53:18 GMT -5
I resolve to call her up a thousand times a dayAnd ask her if she'll marry me in some old fashioned wayBUT MY SILENT TEARS HAVE GRIPPED ME!!Long before I reach the phone, long before my tongue has tripped meMUST I ALWAYS BE ALONE?? Ivy laughed. "I figured that had to be a drunken one, because if you really wanted your ass bitten, I figure you would have asked me to do that for you." She said with a laugh, blowing stray hair out of her eyes. She tried to pretend she didn't hear the bit about the girl's name. Part of her wondered if maybe he'd get her name someday..... to remember her if he didn't stick around.
"What does it mean?" She asked quietly, looking up at him. She didn't know french, and she could see the pain in his eyes, it had to do with his father, maybe a part of himself he sort of wanted to forget but knew he couldn't.
Ivy hadn't experience a tragedy like that, she had no idea how not having a dad made him feel.
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Post by --- Robbie Alix McGuire on Jun 10, 2009 21:39:24 GMT -5
"Oh? I just thought that went without saying." He joked about her biting him. He saw the look pass over her eyes at the mention of the arm tattoo and the thing behind it and brushed the hair that just fell back where she had tried to move it from off her face. "I hardly knew her and we both regretted it." he said as if trying to make it a little better though he didn't see why or how she could be hurt by that. It was years ago and he'd said he was drunk. Maybe he just wasn't getting it the right end of the stick.
He sighed and looked down "You're only a good as you can be bothered being..." he mumbled. It wasn't easy talking about his dad. He had been a little like a best friend to Robbie, they were really close and it hurt a lot that he was gone. "Me and my dad were always like, really close. he said looking back at her again with a sad attempt at a smile. He really just hated talking about it because it made him feel weak and sappy and it hurt too.
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Post by IVORYmercedesSMITHSONIAN on Jun 10, 2009 21:48:10 GMT -5
I resolve to call her up a thousand times a dayAnd ask her if she'll marry me in some old fashioned wayBUT MY SILENT TEARS HAVE GRIPPED ME!!Long before I reach the phone, long before my tongue has tripped meMUST I ALWAYS BE ALONE?? Ivory knew Robbie. Sure he'd regret getting a tattoo, but not sleeping with a girl. Sure, it was a long time ago. Yes it was back when they weren't together. But it was the finality. Some girl had made it onto his skin, a part of his life forever, covered up or not, the ink was still there somewhere.
And Ivy wasn't going to be on his skin. She wasn't going to leave her mark on him. Because she was so sure that he was going to leave her, so sure that every day she would look into the face of their child. a child who would grow up without a father, just like he did. And Robbie wouldn't have to see that, he wouldn't even have to think about her.
That's what she wanted to say. But then he started talking about his father, a topic she knew she'd never get to talk to him about again. "I'm sorry about you dad Robbie." She said quietly. "I think he's probably up there watching you. No, not up there, he's just here, around, and he's in you. Corny as that may sound, I'm right." She smiled faintly, brushing her fingertips over his cheek. "I think he'd be proud of you."
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Post by --- Robbie Alix McGuire on Jun 10, 2009 22:09:23 GMT -5
Robbie could tell something was bothering her and he wanted to know what it was but he didn't really want to ask just incase it would turn into one of those conversations he wouldn't be able to handle once it had started. Deep, meaningful and commited, and it was probably all three combined by the look on her face. He felt like a dick, just brushing it off but his need for ease was always stronger and louder than his conscience.
If Robbie left, he wouldn't have to see her, wouldn't have to see the kid but that didn't mean he wouldn't have to think about her. She wasn't like any other girl he had been with, he'd never told anyone he loved them and he had never felt about anyone the way he felt about her so it wasn't like he could just walk away and never think of her again. He'd have to carry the memory of her around, the guilt for leaving, the wondering of what could have happened and how things could have been if he hadn't left and that questsion 'should I really have left at all'. So either way, it wasn't going to be easy for either of them.
He couldn't help but smile when she had finished and mentioned it being corny and her being right but it quickly dropped when she said she though his dad would be proud of him. He highly doubed his father would be proud of much, that he had given his father anything to be proud for. He had moved to New York and ran away when things were more than he could handle. Now he was in New York he hadn't done anything with himself. He was a bar man just scarping by. He'd been using girls since his old man died and now that he had found the right girl for him, he was planning on ditching when she needed him most. He couldn't see anything that his father could possibly be proud of. "mmh." he mumbled and looked down again.
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Post by IVORYmercedesSMITHSONIAN on Jun 10, 2009 22:20:38 GMT -5
I resolve to call her up a thousand times a dayAnd ask her if she'll marry me in some old fashioned wayBUT MY SILENT TEARS HAVE GRIPPED ME!!Long before I reach the phone, long before my tongue has tripped meMUST I ALWAYS BE ALONE?? She sat up when she saw the look on his face, and she just looked back. "Look, I'm not saying you're a saint. Because you're not. Neither am I..." He'd used girls, she'd used anyone with two legs and sexual organs--no matter which ones. They drank and were irresponsible, they both ran away from things they couldn't handle--him more than her. And he was probably leaving her, she could see it on his face.
"But Robbie, you work hard for a living. You don't want to live on money that isn't yours. You won't let me pay or you and you never ask your family for help. That migth be taking a good virtue too far, but its still a worthy one.." She paused and looked away, off at the wall, she couldn't bear to see his face.
"And when you mean it Robbie, you... are a perfect lover, you're not a bad guy. You're just scared of holding on, and that's okay..... Parents love you, no matter what you do. Or they should anyway, and if your dad is really a good man like you make him out to be, he'd just be proud of you because you keep on going. Going somewhere."
God she felt like she was giving him a speech. Ivy shook her head an leaned back on the pillows, closing her eyes. What could she say?
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Post by --- Robbie Alix McGuire on Jun 10, 2009 22:59:53 GMT -5
Robbie looked down and away from her. It just made it even worse that she was being nice about it. Making his sound like something he really didn't feel like. With all the little ques all night that he'd been having, the reminders that she was carrying his baby and the way he had felt about them. He knew there was no way he was going to stay. They scared him too much. He was a coward, he was selfish and low and a scum bag and no matter what she said to him. He still felt that way.
The thing about the money wasn't even that good. The money help wasn't because he was a good guy, it was because he was too proud and he didn't want to be proven wrong since no one ever though he could do it in the real world. It was more to prove a point than anything else. Going somewhere? Anywhere that he doesn't have to face his issues more like. "Ivy just stop. I'm not a good guy..." he argued and shuffled so he wasn't as close to her and was sat up on his elbows. "Stop trying to make me out to be something I'm not. I'm a prick and no matter what you say about that it's not going to change." he gentle tone waffled off and was replaced by a hard, almost bitter tone that matched the look on his face.
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Post by IVORYmercedesSMITHSONIAN on Jun 10, 2009 23:11:11 GMT -5
I resolve to call her up a thousand times a dayAnd ask her if she'll marry me in some old fashioned wayBUT MY SILENT TEARS HAVE GRIPPED ME!!Long before I reach the phone, long before my tongue has tripped meMUST I ALWAYS BE ALONE?? Ivy opened her eyes and looked at the ceiling. Maybe he was right. Maybe he was just a selfish, proud ass. But that didn't change the fact that she loved him. Even though she could hear in his voice that he wasn't staying. What a way to end.... He didn't even need to say it.
Ivy sat up, hesitated and got out of bed, finding her clothes. She'd take her chances on the street. She couldn't stay here, not with him, not like this... She couldn't.... Ivy lost her resolve when she found her heels, leaving them on the floor and sitting on the edge of the bed.
Somewhere, there was good in him. She'd seen it, she'd felt it, she'd known it. And now she was going to lose it, all of it, good with the bad. "People are more than one thing Robbie." Ivy said in a tone matching to his. He wasn't so one sided as he thought. but he could think whatever he wanted.
She slid on her heels and stood up, finally looking at him. "You've made up your mind, haven't you." She said. Not a question. She wasn't staying if he wasn't staying.
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Post by --- Robbie Alix McGuire on Jun 10, 2009 23:29:02 GMT -5
Robbie knew he wouldn't stay, from a little after she told him it was official. He just couldn't make himself. Couldn't pluck up the courage to stick around. But it was killing him to be so cold and so cruel to her but he didn't know any other way to put the point across. He couldn't do it in the way he should. Couldn't just tell her he wasn't ready. That he loved her but he didn't want to give up everything just yet. That would have made him so much more vinerable. Made things so much harder. The only way he could see other than that was to try and make her want to leave. Make her see the side that he was showing. And only that.
"Well I can tell you one thing I ain't, a father. And I'm pretty sure I can't be." he scowled. He didn't want to hurt her but he was selfish and it seemed like it might help her in the long run if she hated him back. "Who were you really kidding thinking I would stay?" that had to be the final nail in the coffin and he hated himself for saying it but it was just coming out now. His pride and his fear had taken over his mouth and his actions while they pinned down and gagged his concience and his other emotions.
He was selfish, he was spineless and he sure seemed one sided at that point. How could someone be so nasty and have anything good behind it?
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